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|Wednesday, December 10th, 2008|
|Just pin the target on my back...
I realize I'm totally gonna get flamed for this... but it's too amusing for me not to say.
Keeping in mind that I have no stake in this as a person/player or as my PC, I'm kinda hoping Dale loses the election, just to see if someone will actually physically cry or even attempt suicide.
I'm a bad person some days. I don't deny that. Current Mood: amused
|Friday, March 10th, 2006|
Because I'm so horrible at keeping folks updated on here...
As of Christmas Day 2005, I am engaged. :)
That's about all the news I have of late.
|Wednesday, August 17th, 2005|
Could you drop me a line as soon as you see this? I'll be on AIM most of the evening.
|Monday, September 13th, 2004|
Well, it's officially been over a week since I moved to Wisconsin.
Honestly, I can't say there's much I miss about Maryland beyond the people. More specifically, the vast majority of YOU people who are probably going to be reading this. Thanks to Kiwi (and a last minute suprise effort on Ed's part) the move when better than I had anticipated, no thanks to a certain unreliable individual who I thought was a true friend.
So yeah, it's been a week and a finally got all of my unpacking done today. Got things as situated as they're going to get until I have the time and money to work on the basement room (which will be my computer/play room in the near future). The city (and the outlying suburbs) is real nice and the traffic is so much less frustrating that it is in the MD-DC-Va area. No clogged beltways or heinously nerveracking rush hour traffic. This is probably due to the fact that I'm working 8 PM to 5 AM, but hey, good traffic is good traffic, right?
So this might be too long or too short of a post on my part to some, but I promised some of you lovely folks that I'd starting posting again to keep in touch now that I'm 800+ miles away. So let me take a moment to get a little sentimental on y'all...
There are a lot of you that I didn't get a chance to say proper goodbye's too. I know at least a handful of you are on LJ so you'll get to read this. I wish I could have made things less hectic and spent more time with a lot of you folks so that you'd know that profound impact you've had on my life. Some of you I didn't get to see at all before I left (like Claire, Marc, Hope, and Pat). I promise that it was all due to circumstance and not by design, and deep down I'm really paying for it now. So without getting meoldramatic or sappy, I love you folks dearly and plan on keeping in touch as much as possble. Hopefully you'll due the same.
For folks who want to get in touch, my cell is currently in operable (my dumb ass left both chargers back on your side of the country), I can be reached easily at C_Klakring@hotmail.com. (PLEASE, do not send anything game related. You know what account game stuff can be sent to and anything Vampire related sent to the above addy will be indiscriminantly deleted.) I'm checking my mail every day to every other day currently, so my responses will be fairly prompt. I'm sure more than a few of you can even solicite my new home # out of me for some (hot one on one) chat time. Though the hours may be fucked up considering I'm currently working nights. Hurray 3rd shift! Heh.
So yeah, that's the update in a nutshell. Plan on hearing more around Klakring: The Milwaukee Chronicles.
Hopefully some of y'all will EMail and we can chat.
Nothin' but love fo' ya,
Chris Current Mood: productive
|Monday, March 17th, 2003|
Well, my plans for the next year have been offically flushed down the fucking toilet. Sometimes I wonder why the fuck I bother getting up in the morning, or breathing for that matter. Current Mood: Done and Done.
|Thursday, February 27th, 2003|
Other than the mild concussion I have, my day was... well... shitty. Oh, wait, a concussion is bad too, isn't it? Current Mood: discontent
|Monday, February 24th, 2003|
The Evanescence shot tonight at the 9:30 Club ROCKED!!! Amy Lee, the lead singer of the band has a tremendously phenomenal stage presence, filled with a lot of energy. Leslie, Rob, Kris and I enjoyed the show a lot. And as a bonus, we ran into Mike Guilding and a couple of his friends there... which I guess could be bad considering the guys he was with kept buying me beer after beer (after beer, after beer) and then tried to get into the mix and start a fight so I could come bail them out (physically). Regardless, I'm a little well beyond tipsy at the moment... but HAPPY.
The show rocked and afterwards, Amy came out, sat on the stage and signed autographs. Leslie got out tickets signed by her which was really cool.
I had a blast. Current Mood: content
|Monday, February 17th, 2003|
Can you fucking believe that my boss is telling me I HAVE to come into work this morning?
Well, it's currently still in debate. I'm snowed in at Brendan's (literally). The snow has gotten to like two and a half feet and his community has not been plowed at all. I told my boss when I called him this morning that if he wanted me to come in, his ass had to come and get me. So,he's like "Hang tight where you are. When the Director of Ops gets in here, we'll make some decisions. I am seriously doubting you be in here because all of the vans are still buried and stuck and out parking lot hasn't been plowed, but I want you on stnad-by the whole day just in case."
Fucking turd. I could be sleeping in right now.
|Friday, January 31st, 2003|
Well, if my truck is acting like it was on my ride home tonight tomorrow... The NVA event will be out of the question. Looks like I'll miss out on seeing folks I really wanna see... Fuckin' A.
|Thursday, January 30th, 2003|
MIKE LEHMAN, Please send me the directions to the game site or I will NOT be making it down this weekend.
|Saturday, January 25th, 2003|
It's 4:21 AM. I'm alone here in the dark. It's cold and I very much don't wanna be alone. Have figured a few things out, though. I guess we'll see. Current Mood: contemplative
|Tuesday, January 21st, 2003|
|Just when you thought it was safe...
It was a rough weekend. Game was okay, but life found another way to slap me in the face. And it none of it hit me until about 3 hours ago. It hit me like a ton of bricks then. There's not much I care to say about it right now, though.
Was at least nice to see folks though...
Jeff- Amusing as always.
Chris- Thanks for the bed space and back scratches on Friday,doll.
Marc- Dude, you never cease to amaze me.
Carrie- Sorry the ride home was so torturous.
Kitty- You may not have known it, but I needed you,and you were there when I least
expected it and needed you most. Thank you.
Fate is fucking with me hard again. Too bad for fate that I'm not willing to break yet. Current Mood: contemplative
|Tuesday, January 14th, 2003|
Work was uneventful today (stressful,but uneventful). Went to Brendan's after work today and met up with him and the fellas and from there we all went to Champion's in Laurel. Monday night "Dart Night" has become a reoccuring thing,practically a ritual,but I don't mind so much. The atmosphere is relaxing,the food is good,and the waitress' are cute (more on that later).
Despite the fact that we were there from like 7:30 til midnight,I only played 3 games of darts (Schooled both Frosty and Rob,was obliterated by Ed). I was much more content to just sit,watch (my friends and the people around us) and think. Had a few drinks (just two Killian's and a Guinness that of course,by demand,I had to Irish-throat) and ate for the only time of the day (slipping in my endeavors to do 3 squares a day). I spaced out a few times,lost in thought,but it was positive thinking,I guess.
There was one particular waitress who caught my eye,who flashed me more than one sweet smile. Found out from our waitor Erik (who has been out reoccuring server)that her name was Erica and that she was spoken for. Regardless,Erik and some of the guys kept prodding me to talk to her and Erik even said he had already mentioned earlier that I thought she was cute (jackass). Well,true to form,I was a chicken shit and told them there was no point since she was spoken for. This did not stop RJ (who had a few too many to drink) and he went up and talked to her "on my behalf" (heh). Well,upon returning,he said that he had told her that I thought she was cute and that I was interested and according to him she had a look and tone that said she regretted admitting having a boyfriend when he pointed me out. So apparently I should press the issue (according to RJ,who is a tool anyway). Dunno... guess there's a possibility. Can always find out the next time we are they,since it's gonna be a regular occurance. We'll see...
Have gotten to think a lot. Didn't sleep much (thanks a lot Kris for the 7 AM wake up call that kept me from going back to sleep),but did get to think. Thought a lot about what a couple people have told me in private and am thinking on it. Thinking hard. I still have a few ideas on what I SHOULD do with myself,but we'll see if I follow through with measures others might find unnessecary.
On a side not,despite having not posted about Saturday night's confrontation,I'm still rather pissed off at Rob,to the point that I ignored him (even in a game of darts) and avoided talking extended amounts with him. He was in the wrong and will never admit it. And what he did hit me hard at a very bad time in my life and it hurt. I'm not ready to let go of it yet,and I know he'll never admit he was in the wrong and apologize,ever. ::Sighs and shrugs:: Eventually,I'll just let it go until the next time he decides to be an incosiderate ass and take his anger out on me for no reason.
I'm seeing some interesting things. There's a circle I'm seeing that's almost complete and I'm afraid it's gonna push me out of my circle of very very close friends. I hate being the spare wheel. ::Shrug:: I guess we'll see,but it's inevitable.
Overall,I guess it wasn't a bad night. Current Mood: contemplative
|Monday, January 13th, 2003|
To Kat and Kris,
Thanks for givin' a fella a lot to think about this weekend and more importanty,thanks for being there and talking to me. It's given me strength that I've desperately needed.
You both rock.
-The Bear Current Mood: tired
|Sunday, January 12th, 2003|
Spent a good hour on Brendan's front steps,smoking and watching the sky. Yeah, it's like 21 degrees outside and I still have no feeling in my hands,but it was time well spent,I guess. Why is it that it's clearest when it's coldest (or is that just me)? And I don't just mean the sky and weather. Even came in once to get a beer and was practically warm in comparison to my hands. S'okay,though. Ran them under warm water to get the feeling back and then went right back out. Guess I had a few moments of clarity. Who knows? The stars were pretty enough... drew my attention and thoughts away from the here and now. Not much more I care to say on the matter... but the few moments spent not chain smoking and drinking Killian's in the 21 degree weather in jeans and a flannel did something for me I guess.
I just feel damn shitty for lying to someone and telling them that I was okay.
I'm not. Can't really say why or how, but I'm not.
Maybe, I should kick that snow globe. Kick it and then do some of the things I have planned in my mind to try and make things better. Current Mood: cold
|Tuesday, January 7th, 2003|
Yes, I'm drunk. So what? It's amazing how much enebriation gives you clarity. (And it's amazing how I drove home considering how many times I swerved and checked my brakes)
Tonight,I have figure out that I am useless. Completely and utterly. People very close to me are hurting badly and there's not a god damned fucking thing I can do to make it better. Not even a bit. I just listen, and my heart breaks and break,and breaks some more. Tonight was no different. Why can't I have semi-phenomenal,nearly cosmic powers to MAKE EVERYTHING OKAY!?! ANd more and more I'm finding my friends lack of faith in my ability to do things (Well,you had no faith that I could drive home and get there in one piece,here I am.right?) disheartening.
So whadda I do? Drink. That's tha answer. drink drink drinl. Worked tnight. drinked and DANCED (yes,I danced) and threw dartds (am still good while drinking). Downed many a guiness and made friends eyes go wide at that. Yay me.
Won't be useless forever,right? Gonna be fertilizer somedya.
Love y'all. Current Mood: drunk
|Sunday, January 5th, 2003|
Sometimes I wonder why I get up in the mornings.
|Thursday, January 2nd, 2003|
Worked the first 8 hours of my 16 hour shift today,left for break and never went back. They never called. This should be amusing when I show up in the morning for work. So I left at 3 and went over to Bren's. Hung out with all the folks there. There was some D & D goin' on,but honestly,I just wasn't feeling it. I mean,I was "Role Playing" all day, pretending to be in a mood that I really wasn't. I feel bad for it,but it was better then putting a damper on anyone else's mood. I find that I'm doing this quite a lot lately. Maybe if I put my jovial/happiness mask on enough,it'll just stick. Sound logical? Current Mood: blank
|Tuesday, December 31st, 2002|
|Last few days of Decemeber...heh.
Well,with a few days left in December (and the year), something did manage to happen...
I had worked it out a week or so ago with my boss that I would work a doube shift on New Year's Day (which I normally have off),in order to get the Monday and Tuesday after off as Floating Holidays to be able to go out to Columbus this weekend for Kat's birthday (which I had been planning to do since I told her I wouldn't be able to make New Year's). She made my last birthday such a wonderful one despite things I had going on that were bad.
Well,I was told yesterday by my boss that I could now only have Monday off due to scheduling error but they were still having me do the double tomorrow. I figured okay,shitty,but I could make due. Well,turns out Kat has to work Saturday and on her B-Day too. So it turns out that going out there isn't a feasable idea. Yeah,it sucks,and is very unhappy making... but what made it total shit was trying to talk to my boss today to tell him I didn't need the Monday off and see if I could get out of working tomorrow. Well,he was happy to take my day off away...
...And I'm still working a fucking double shift tomorrow.
So here I am,a responsible human being. At home,doing nothing for fucking New Year's. Gotta be to work between 7 and 8 (Boss wants me there at 7). Not gonna drink because if I do I'll go purposely overboard. No plans for the weekend.
And people said December would be a better month for me after November. Oh,and to stack it all up? Home owner's insurance won't cover the loss of my stuff last week. Battin' a fuckin' thousand,ain't I?
Got a line from a song I heard on the radio today. "I was lookin' foward to a happy ending,so much for pretending."
I really hope you all have a wonderful New Year's. Drink a few for me... Current Mood: Hopeless